Lyrics

Mirror of my soul

Darkness & light [Intro]

Maybe it’s not as flat as you might think
When you can read between the lines
Maybe you can understand it better, when
You were also in the darkness
Searching for some kind of light…

Back to my roots

Yeah, yeah, alright
Yeah, yeah, alright

On the way back to my roots I was often sad
‘cause sometimes it is so hard to turn right
On the way back to home, it was so strange to go
‘cause I noticed the lies and laughter about my life
Oh, this game is not easy to play
Because I’m one of a kind in my family

Now I’m back to my roots, I found my soul again
I’m back at the right place, it’s a new space for me
I went back to my home and found my heart again
Went back to my roots, back, back, back to my roots


Yeah, yeah, alright
Yeah, yeah, alright

For many years I scanned my soul
Because I wanted to know:
“Who is the demon who has built the hole deep in my soul?”
In those times I lost my life completely
In those days I hoped to find
The right way to live my life

Now I’m back to my roots, I found my soul again
I’m back at the right place, it’s a new space for me
I went back to my home and found my heart again
Went back to my roots, back, back, back to my roots


Oh, this game is not a funny one
So many years I scanned my soul
It’s a long way to find your home
In those days I hoped to find a way

Now I’m back to my roots, I found my soul again
I’m back at the right place, it’s a new space for me
I went back to my home and found my heart again
Went back to my roots
Now I’m back to my roots, I found my soul again
I’m back at the right place, it’s a new space for me
I went back to my home and found my heart again
Went back to my roots
I went back to my home and found my heart again
Went back to my roots, back, back, back to my roots

Fucked up again

Laying in my bed this day
Never wanted that again
Laying around here today
Never wanna feel this way
Tryin’ to understand that thing
Addicted to the darkness, man
I will always end up here
They’re telling me that it’s my fear
My emotions bring me down
There’s no pill to delete my soul
I don’t wanna live that way
Praying to escape someday

I fucked up again
I fucked up my life
I fucked up again
I fucked up again, this time
I fucked up again
I fucked up my life
I fucked up again
I fucked up again, this time
This time, ohohohoh I fucked up


I try too hard to see that thing
What other people see in me
Every day is getting worse
I can not accept that face
In my bed, yeah again I’m here
The loneliness is hunting me
Flashbacks and the memories
Give me every day some fears
Tired of all that therapies
It will never change a thing
Locked up in my room alone
Not even get my telephone

I fucked up again
I fucked up my life
I fucked up again
I fucked up again, this time
I fucked up again
I fucked up my life
I fucked up again
I fucked up again, this time
This time, ohohohoh I fucked up

Borderline

Who’s the demon in my soul, the shadow of my heart
The nightmare inside of me? What’s wrong in my mind?
How should I control? Know I should break out
But where’s it safe? It’s out the door there!
I search a way out, but how to find out where to go?
Where’s the door, ey? How should I go out there?
Where’s the door, where should I be?

I’m on the borderline and I run away tonight
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I can’t breathe
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I break down and cry


With these emotional deaths I stay unattached
How should I survive otherwise?
I know, you can’t understand how deep I fall
How should I control all of this?
Know I should break out, but where’s it safe for me?
Contacts feel like a battlefield
Where’s the door, ey? How should I go out there?
Where’s the door, where should I be?

I’m on the borderline and I run away tonight
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I can’t breathe
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I break down and cry


Who’s the devil in my soul?
Who’s the devil in my soul?
Who’s the devil in my soul?
Who’s the devil in my soul?
Who’s the devil in my soul?
(Who’s the devil in my soul?)

I’m on the borderline and I run away tonight
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I can’t breathe
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I run away tonight
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I can’t breathe
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I run away tonight
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I can’t breathe
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I run away tonight
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry
I’m on the borderline and I can’t breathe
I’m on the borderline and I break down and cry

Drowning

I’m in the devil’s wheel
Been pressed by his evil hands
I don’t know what to feel
Been too weak, no more defense
I am at my bare feet
My pressure is just so much tense
I want to finally breathe
Been wracked, useless in a sense
The prison of my thoughts
Like being at my own funeral
Gone to soon, gone to soon, gone to soon

I’m drowning, drowning, drowning
Feeling sorry for myself again
I’m drowning, drowning, drowning
Going through the motions but numb from the pain
I’m drowning, drowning, drowning
Feeling sorry for myself again
I’m drowning, drowning, drowning
Going through the motions but numb from the pain
Numb from the pain, numb from the pain


I’m giving up on me
Feels like the last days of my life
I am done with all my grief
God, can you please help me survive?
How much can I keep praying?
When will my glory days arrive?
I try so hard to fight
I’ve been dissolving, can’t take this life
The prison of my thoughts
Like standing at my very own grave
Please stay alive, stay alive, stay alive

I’m drowning, drowning, drowning
Feeling sorry for myself again
I’m drowning, drowning, drowning
Going through the motions but numb from the pain
I’m drowning, drowning, drowning
Feeling sorry for myself again
I’m drowning, drowning, drowning
Going through the motions but numb from the pain


I’m in the devil’s wheel
(It’s cutting deeper, deeper, deeper than broken glass)
(Numb from the pain)
I’m in the devil’s wheel
(It’s cutting deeper, deeper, deeper than broken glass)
(Numb from the pain)
I’m in the devil’s wheel
(It’s cutting deeper, deeper, deeper than broken glass)
(Numb from the pain)
I’m in the devil’s wheel
(It’s cutting deeper, deeper, deeper than broken glass)
(Numb from the pain)
I’m in the devil’s wheel

Stop

 Everyone is trying
Trying to do well
Everyone is failing
Falling to the stones
Everyone is saying:
“Stand up when you’re lost!”
No one wants to hold you
When you need it most
So, face through all the seasons
One, two, three and four
Oh, there is no easy path
But please don’t lose your faith
So, look in all directions
East, west, north and south
Oh, there is no easy path
But please keep all your grace

Stop to try the best
And take a little rest
But then come back soon
Shine like the moon
The right ones will stay with you
And make you feel the same
Stop to make it harder
Harder than it is
Stop to try the best
And take a little rest
Only then you see
That life can be happy
The right ones will stay with you
And make you feel the same
Stop to make it harder
Harder than it is


You can do anything
Anything you want
You just must believe
Stronger in yourself
You will get your chance
Just keep holding on
You should know you’re able to
Break out of your cuffs
So, look in all directions
East, west, north and south
Oh, there is no easy path
But please don’t lose your grace
So, face through all the seasons
One, two, three and four
Oh, there is no easy path
But please keep all your faith

Stop to try the best
And take a little rest
But then come back soon
Shine like the moon
The right ones will stay with you
And make you feel the same
Stop to make it harder
Harder than it is
Stop to try the best
And take a little rest
Only then you see
That life can be happy
The right ones will stay with you
And make you feel the same
Stop to make it harder
Harder than it is


Everyone is trying
Trying to do well
Everyone is failing
Falling to the stones

Want to be for you

I say to you, my heartbeat goes faster
You say to me, your feelings grow stronger
I say to you, my love is a true thing
You say, your heartbeat goes like it’s jumping

I want to be the one who is there for you
I want to be the love in your heart, it’s true
I want to hold your hand, no matter what you do
I want to be the light in dark days for you
I want to be the sunshine in your eyes
I want to bring each and every star to you


I say to you, my life is so bright now
You say to me, my heart beats only for me
I say to you, my soul is just yours now
You say to me, your feelings get stronger

I want to be the one who is there for you
I want to be the love in your heart, it’s true
I want to hold your hand, no matter what you do
I want to be the light in dark days for you
I want to be the sunshine in your eyes
I want to bring each and every star to you


This is our way, so baby come with me, oh come with me
Oh, love inside of me, tells me I am free, oh free to be me
Oh, this is our way, so baby come with me

I want to be the one who is there for you
I want to be the love in your heart, it’s true
I want to hold your hand, no matter what you do
I want to be the light in dark days for you
I want to be the sunshine in your eyes
I want to bring each and every star to you


This is our way, so baby come with me, oh come with me
Oh, love inside of me, tells me I am free, oh free to be me
Oh, this is our way, so baby come with me 

 

Something (I never said) [Remix Edit] 

What they say is just so wrong
Image all this world without heavens love
One day they’re gonna see the truth
I know our souls will hold against all these odds
Numb from pain, can’t deal no more
Crashing, hitting the wall
They took away so much time, time to figure out
Time to figure out life

Something I never said is how much I, how much I love you
No matter how hard the fight is with you by my side, I feel I belong
Something I always hide is how much I, how much I need you
No matter how hard the times with you by my side, I feel I am home


We are captured in this free world
How could a troubled soul still be free?
One day they’re gonna see everything they did
Then they could change it and start to discuss
Hanging, beating an innocent life
They could change and discuss, but they can’t change all our souls
They can’t change what’s inside of our hearts

Something I never said is how much I, how much I love you
No matter how hard the fight is with you by my side, I feel I belong
Something I always hide is how much I, how much I need you
No matter how hard the times with you by my side, I feel I am home


يا بيبي خلاص كله راح خصرنا كل حاجة مفضلش في الدنية خلاص غيري انا وانتي بس
لا معايا لامبو ولا معايا بنتلي بس اقدر اقولك اني بحبك ايه
هنقدي ليلة صدقيني مش هتتنسي ايه ماشفتش في حياتي اجمل منك ايه
اي حاجة نفسك فيها هجيبهالك هلف الدنية حتى لو هفتشهالك ايه
من نفسي عاوز احقق احلامك هنزل اعمل مصلحة وهحققهالك ايه
لو مش قدها مش هوعدك بيها ياه كل قرش بعمله بعملها ليها ايه ياه ايه ايه اي
كل حاجة بعملها بعملها ليها ولا ثنية في الشارع كنت ناسيها كنت ناسيها ايه ايه ايه
كان نفسي اخدك ونلف العالم مع بعضينا

Something I never said is how much I, how much I love you
(يا قلبي الدنية كلها كده كده لينا
ايه دخلنا الحفلة والناس كلها فرحت بينا)
No matter how hard the fight is with you by my side, I feel I belong
(ايه ماشيين في الدنية ومش هاممنا اللي ناسينا)
Something I always hide is how much I, how much I need you
No matter how hard the times with you by my side, I feel I am home


Whenever you feel alone, be sure that I will be there
This way is long and it is hard, but know that I love you so, I love you so
Whenever you feel alone, be sure that I will be there
This way is long and it’s hard, yeah, I know this way is so hard, so hard, but I love you so

In your arms / Without you [Interlude]

Demons on my mind
Coldness in my heart
Demons on my mind
Coldness in my heart
I always fall apart
Don’t know what is wrong
I just know I can’t stand that without you by my side
Always fall apart
Want you in my arms
Always fall apart
Want you in my arms

What can I do to do today something right?
I could see my life but didn’t know where to go
I don’t know why I should go on - I’ve seen everything
No matter what I do, it feels like I’m wasting away
What can I do, do, do, do – I feel no life inside
No matter what I do, I feel like I’m wasting time without you

Keep me 

Smoking heavily this evening till it’s hard for me to breathe
I keep mirroring my poisoned mind with my physical health
Massaging in the poison of my mental health into my teeth
All the sick thoughts in my head I keep them as my own wealth
Speaking out loud what the demons make me feel today
That's how I try to keep the good people on my side away
Can you promise me to look behind the darkest scene?
Keep in mind I don't mean the cruel things I say to you
Can I trust you to stand up for me when I lay on the floor?
I know the way I behave makes you think I'm so hard-core

Keep me close, please stay at my side
Keep me near, please don't let me fall
Keep me warm, please bear with my faults
Keep me close, keep me close, keep me close to you


Drinking heavily this morning till it’s hard for me to stand
I keep reproducing my worst dreams with every sip I take
Sleeping as much as I can, pain pulls me down like quicksand
All the sick things that I do trying to retrieve myself
I don't know any more what to do, sounds like the same old song
I don't know how I came here, I just know it's all so wrong
But can you promise me to look behind the darkest scenes?
Keep in mind I don't mean the cruel things I say to you
Can I trust you to stand up for me when I lay on the floor?
I know that the way I behave makes you think I'm so hard-core

Keep me close, please stay at my side
Keep me near, please don't let me fall
Keep me warm, please bear with my faults
Keep me close, keep me close, keep me close to you
Keep me close, please stay at my side
Keep me near, please don't let me fall
Keep me warm, please bear with my faults
Keep me close, keep me close, keep me close to you


 Keep me close to you

Can't make you love me

 Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
The way you treated me, makes me feel so used
The way you treated me, makes me still feel abused
The way you treated me, makes me feel like I am alone
The way you treated me, made me feel like I had to go
But to be true, I’m still not over you

Can't make you love me, but still can't forget you
It's so unfair how I struggle without you
Can't make you love me, but still can't forget you
It's not the greatest thing to feel the way that I do
Can’t make you love me. I can’t make you love me, uh


Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
The way you went away, just made my heart ache
The way you went away, made me feel left behind
I went away from you, just a few months ago
I still can’t understand how you’ve treated me so wrong
I know it was the right thing what I chose to do
But to be true, this is me still thinking about you

Can't make you love me, but still can't forget you
It's so unfair how I struggle without you
Can't make you love me, but still can't forget you
It's not the greatest thing to feel the way that I do
Can’t make you love me. I can’t make you love me, uh


Ohhho. Ohhho. Ohhh

The way you treated me, what were you thinking?
The way you went away, dismembered my peace!
The way you treated me, how careless can you be?
The way you went away, broke my heart in two!
The way you treated me, how can you sleep at night, at night…
But to be true, by now I should be over you, uh

Today

 Oh, today I’m so down
Feels like there is no light
There are always two ways to go
The new way and the old
I know I turned to the wrong one today
There are blood-drops all over the floor
Oh, why did I do that again
Can’t even tell you how this came

Today I’m black, but tomorrow I’ll be white
Today alone, tomorrow I feel you by my side
Today hating myself, praying to get better
Today I can’t stop crying, tomorrow it’s because of laughter


Today I’m so confused
And there is no help to be found
‘Cause depression is growing
I just need your protection
I keep fighting no matter what you do
But I need you here to help me, too
Push you if you’re trying
It is affecting everybody

Today I’m black, but tomorrow I’ll be white
Today alone, tomorrow I feel you by my side
Today hating myself, praying to get better
Today I can’t stop crying, tomorrow it’s because of laughter


Today I’m black, but tomorrow I’ll be white
I need your help to go through this dark night
I just need your protection, tomorrow I know I will be fine
Today I’m black, but tomorrow I’ll be white
I need your help to go through this dark night
I just need your protection, tomorrow I know I will be fine

Ohhho
Ohhho
Ohhh
Ohhh

Today I’m black, but tomorrow I’ll be white
Today alone, tomorrow I feel you by my side
Today hating myself, praying to get better
Today I can’t stop crying, tomorrow it’s because of laughter
Today I’m black, but tomorrow I’ll be white
Today alone, tomorrow I feel you by my side
Today hating myself, praying to get better
Today I can’t stop crying, tomorrow it’s because of laughter

You

I wish I would be able to hold you in my arms
I hope who ever’s with you takes care of you like I did
You will be my true love, a safe place in my heart
I promised you, that even death can’t tear us apart
I know the worlds against us, no safe place for us reserved
Be sure I’m always with you and we will meet up there
Destiny has chosen our hearts belong in one place
Society has decided to haunt us down for love

You are the one I want to come home to every night
You are the one who can melt this ice deep inside
You are the one I want to spend every second with
You are the one who can make the darkest days change


I wish I could just give you one last kiss down here
I look out of the window, dreaming that you will appear
Every now and then we could hide out in the car
But now as we are older, we can’t hold up this last straw
I hope we will remember the way we were someday
I know you would be angry seeing how I grieve all day
You would kiss my forehead and say, that we are strong
Reality hits hard sometimes, but giving up is no way

You are the one I want to come home to every night
You are the one who can melt this ice deep inside
You are the one I want to spend every second with
You are the one who can make the darkest days change


I wish that you are mine
(I wish, that we could be just fine)
A wish is sometimes not enough
(A wish is sometimes not enough)
Oh, how I wish that you are mine
(I wish, that we could be just fine)
A wish is sometimes not enough
(As we know life has to be rough)
A wish is sometimes not enough
(As we know life has to be rough)
A wish is sometimes not enough
(As we know life has to be rough)

You are the one I want to come home to every night
You are the one who can melt this ice deep inside
You are the one I want to spend every second with
You are the one who can make the darkest days change
You are the one I want to come home to every night
You are the one who can melt this ice deep inside
You are the one I want to spend every second with
You are the one who can make the darkest days change

My way

Once again in this sheets, sheets of heartfelt shame
By the way feeling lonely and I’m lost in this game
I know it’s wrong to let me go deep in that hole
It’s easier than working out, working out my pain
Day by day goes by and nothing’s gonna change
Light by light goes off, oh I’m losing my strength
Day by day goes by and no time to share sorrow
Light by light goes off, oh I’m losing my way

The darkness comes and covers me in pain
These nights come and I know I’ll lose my way
The clouds build up like a wall made of all my pain
I want to scream, because I am losing my way


Need to figure out, why I am here on my own
Loneliness and pain seem to be my only friends
I’ve tried it for too long, but enough is enough
Isn’t it insane, so many of us deal with pain?
Day by day goes by and nothing’s gonna change
Light by light goes off, oh I’m losing my faith
Day by day goes by and no time to share
Light by light goes off, oh I’m losing my way

The darkness comes and covers me in pain
These nights come and I know I’ll lose my way
The clouds build up like a wall made of all my pain
I want to scream, because I am losing my way


It seems to be my way, but I will never give up
Some days are cold and rough, but I will never lose hope
I will never, I will never, I will never, I will never, I will never
I will never lose hope

The darkness comes and covers me in pain
These nights come and I know I’ll lose my way
The clouds build up like a wall made of all my pain
I want to scream, because I am losing my way

Mirror of my soul

I need to learn the skills to keep my thoughts in line
My psychiatrist telling me only than I can be fine
Years and years of isolation, they went down the line
For the darkest secrets in my mind, I built a shrine
Self-destruction can be done in so many different ways
How can you see the truth I hide and think it’s a phase
Paying someone to listen to you can make your soul cry
All I hear is "normal" people don't need a doctor to try
Regret all over all my once innocent thoughts
The laughter of lost years, look at what it has brought
Tears of my darkest nights some days, oh, all come to hunt
All these people telling me it's all just a dumb stunt

So, look into the mirror of my soul
There's just a deep, deep black hole
That is the mirror of my soul
So, look into the mirror of my soul
There's just a deep, deep black hole
That is the mirror of my soul


I wrote so many explanations on why I do what I do
Maybe my psychiatrist will read it and get a clue
I keep playing with myself just a fucking losing game
Will I ever be able to get rid of this evil pain?
Emotional distress on three-hundred-sixty days a year
Countless times on the ward will not get rid of all my fear
A sinking ship, its passengers will surely drown
People telling me to be normal and don't act like a clown
Regret all over all my once innocent thoughts
The laughter of lost years, look at what it has brought
Tears of my darkest nights some days, oh, all come to hunt
All these people telling me it's all just a dumb stunt

So, look into the mirror of my soul
There's just a deep, deep black hole
That is the mirror of my soul
So, look into the mirror of my soul
There's just a deep, deep black hole
That is the mirror of my soul
So, look into the mirror of my soul
There's just a deep, deep black hole
That is the mirror of my soul
So, look into the mirror of my soul
There's just a deep, deep black hole

(There's just a deep, deep black hole)
That is the mirror of my soul
So, look into the mirror of my soul

There's just a deep, deep black hole
(There's just a deep, deep black hole
Just a deep, deep, deep black black hole)
That is the mirror of my soul
So, look into the mirror of my soul
There's just a deep, deep black hole
That is the mirror of my soul

(A black, black, black, black hole)

Broken pieces that once was so whole
That’s the shattered mirror of my soul
But once there was an innocent soul

So much more [Outro]

Maybe
This was not
Everything
To my story…